OK, so I've got the engine running again. I am finally making new work and getting back into some kind of rhythm again after a months of spinning my wheels. I have not yet digested what is behind the new work, but I am sure there are fatherhood/manhood/hero/shadow-self ideas and metaphors bumping around in there somewhere. Self-portraiture as performance, performance as investigation, all that.
-this is the last image of this series that i will be posting. The original series was a bit longer, but I feel this is a good end point for now.
I revisited this work from about 10 years ago in an effort to try to 're-experience' what it was like to create the work. I am in the midst of working on a new body of work and am experimenting with ways of re-starting my creative engine. As of this week I am shooting again and am mildly excited by the results. I will keep you posted on the results of this process. (beware, there are a few other series of work i will be revisiting)
Any techniques or thoughts on recovering from creative block or on jump starting a new body of work would be welcomed. I could try them myself and/or share them with my fine art black and white class at NESOP. By for now. S
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A bird chirped outdoors in a tree, but that only made the silence thicker. You could have cut slices of it and buttered them.
(cont.) They are always a little to one side or up or down. I touched his face. It was warm and slightly moist. That would be from his drink. He hadn't been dead more than twenty minutes.
His eyes glittered as I got close. I bent over to stare into them, to try and meet their look. It couldn't be done. It never can, with dead eyes.
"I wobbled and wiped the cold sweat of nausea off my forehead and felt the back of my head. It was soft and pulpy, like a bruised peach. When I touched it I could feel the pain clear down to my ankles. I could feel every pain I ever felt since the first time I got kicked in the rear in grade school.
This image is one of many I have taken of Matthew Bauer.
The photograph is one of many in a continuing series
where Mr. Bauer represents my 'shadow self'. Using an
alter ego to represent my self allows a great amount
of representation of situations that are best described
as a dream world and also allow me to work through a
darker side of my self I do not desire to or am not willing
to act out in reality.
So I have finally made the leap into the "blog - o - sphere". I will start with baby steps here to test the water. The plan is to post something in progress, or something new every day. Have a look and follow me down this path if you can.